I had a mini meltdown. I finished the 7th and final season of the Gilmore Girls. I have now watched 7 full seasons since I've been on maternity leave. As I was watching and crying through 
the very last episode, I realized that not only was I finishing mine and Caitlyn's relationship with mother and daughter, Loralai and Rory Gilmore, my maternity leave was also coming to an end. I return to work on the 2nd of January which seems way too close. I have been tremendously lucky to have one week short of 5 months off to be with Caitlyn. My mom attempted to cheer me up today by reminding me that I'm only going back to work as a 0.6 FTE, which means only 2 days a week (wednesday and thursday) and every other weekend. One might think that is not bad at all... but to me, an eight hour day seems like a lifetime to be away from Caitlyn. Especially because she rolled over for the first time on Sunday and I know that she will be continuing to grow and learn so fast now... I don't want to miss a thing! I'm tearing up right now just typing about it. I love being a nurse but I love being a mom so much more!!! I don't want these next 15 days to end. I am doing my best to make them last and to cherish every second, but with the hustle and bustle of the holiday season... the days are going by way too fast.
the very last episode, I realized that not only was I finishing mine and Caitlyn's relationship with mother and daughter, Loralai and Rory Gilmore, my maternity leave was also coming to an end. I return to work on the 2nd of January which seems way too close. I have been tremendously lucky to have one week short of 5 months off to be with Caitlyn. My mom attempted to cheer me up today by reminding me that I'm only going back to work as a 0.6 FTE, which means only 2 days a week (wednesday and thursday) and every other weekend. One might think that is not bad at all... but to me, an eight hour day seems like a lifetime to be away from Caitlyn. Especially because she rolled over for the first time on Sunday and I know that she will be continuing to grow and learn so fast now... I don't want to miss a thing! I'm tearing up right now just typing about it. I love being a nurse but I love being a mom so much more!!! I don't want these next 15 days to end. I am doing my best to make them last and to cherish every second, but with the hustle and bustle of the holiday season... the days are going by way too fast.
3 comments:
I hear you, girlfriend. It's ok to feel sad, shed tears, and have anxiety...it means you are a great mommy. We all are going thru such major changes and it seems just as we get it all down, it changes again...I'm always here if you need me...I know EXACTLY how you are feeling right now. Love you tons, tiffany
Erin, I know what you're going thru...I still have another 2 months off and I'm already panicking. I only work part-time...3 days a week, 10 hours a day...but I just can't fathom being gone period.
I hope you're able to slow time a bit and enjoy the rest of your days with Caitlyn. What a blessing that you were able to be home with her for as long as you were...especially thru the holidays!
Merry Christmas Ü
Thank God you were awake at the same time I was last night...Avery finally fell asleep at 2:45am. I stopped texting you cuz Kory came downstairs to see what was going on. She was sitting on my lap screaming because I coudn't get her to stop...and I was eating leftover spaghetti. It was a crappy night, to say the least.
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